bonzo loves having a baby sister. he wants to hold her and love her every chance he gets. but big feelings come with the territory, that's for sure – and there have been some big feelings felt over here. i expected them but that doesn't make them any easier for any of us. there's been a huge change and we're all feeling it.
despite doing our very best to keep bonzo's proverbial cup full, saturday marked the single most challenging parenting day we've experienced in nearly three years. it was a tough one. all the feelings that have been accumulating for days – and probably weeks – came to the surface in the form of total upset from sun-up to bedtime. nothing was working for bonzo. it was exasperating. he was so out of sorts and so miserable. he was just looking for reasons to let it rip and any reason would do. if we said up, he'd want down. black and he'd want white. no and he'd want yes. the entire day was constant conflict and resistance, crying and screaming, frustration and exhaustion. patience were no where to be found – for any of us.
thankfully the feelings were felt, tears were shed and then the tide turned. but i'll tell you – it was a rough day. i'm sure we'll find our way back there – i hardly think we're out of the woods with the feelings – but, for now, we're all happy to have hit the low-point and resurface unscathed.
that's the thing about big feelings. feeling them is super healing. and i know that, while it was miserable to live through, living through it helped us all.
and there's been so much sweetness in spite of it all, it's almost too much to take.